Through this horrible storm, we have seen bursts of sunshine as God orchestras all the details and reminds us of His loving care. My mother asked for me to write them out because she wanted to send an email about it. I think I'm going to just list them out in bullet form.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Posted by Rosetta at 9:50 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tomorrow it will be two weeks since our little angel left us. Oh how my heart aches. I miss her so much. :'-( Our family is incomplete without her. My days feel empty. Yes, I have a lot more free time now, but I would give up all of my free time to have her back in my arms.
Posted by Rosetta at 6:35 PM
Rosetta does most of the writing here, but I wanted to jump in to talk about mothering.
Rosetta had modeled mothering for the last several years. Of Sierra's 3 years and 28 days of life, Rosetta spent 3 years and 27 days with her. The one day she didn't, our other daughter Ruby was born so she was a little busy. But its not so much about the number of days spent, its about what she did during those days.
When Sierra was in NICU, the doctors put a feeding tube in her stomach because they said she would never be able to eat normally. Rosetta found a special kind of bottle called a Haberman that assisted kids with with sucking reflexes to learn to suck. Within two months, the tube was out.
This does not mean that feeding Sierra was easy. She eventually learned to suck well enough to go to a regular baby bottle and then to a sippy cup, but feedings typically took at least half an hour, many times longer. On top of that, Sierra typically couldn't go to the bathroom on her own, so Rosetta spent significant time each day helping her make this happen.
On top of all that, there were endless therapies and appointments. It started out with taking her to a chiropractor in Austin twice a week. Eventually we switched to a chiropractor in Temple, but then found a good massage therapist in Austin that she started taking her to. This involved significant drive time, not to mention the various local therapies that she took her to, or had therapists come to the house for. Most of the time any time Rosetta got to herself was after midnight, if she got it at all!
Sierra's cues were very subtle. Many times I wouldn't even pick up on them. But Rosetta did, even if it was the middle of the night and she was asleep. Rosetta was so tuned in that if anything was amiss she would wake right up and tend to Sierra.
Sierra could not have had a more caring mother who dedicated her life to her daughter and giving her every opportunity.
Posted by Jason Fedelem at 9:36 AM
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I have decided to continue this blog. I will use it to write down memories of Sierra or share my grief as I miss my precious little girl. The entries will be very raw and real. Some of them will be happy memories and others will be filled with the pain and hurt of losing my baby.
Posted by Rosetta at 9:28 PM
Monday, October 18, 2010
Posted by Jason Fedelem at 9:55 PM
Posted by Jason Fedelem at 9:54 PM